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Gallus, This is what I know: Coz right now, it�s just fucked. You supposedly want me, yet crap on about wanting to do the right thing, which is very noble, but here is the problem- it�s already started. The time for being noble has well and truly passed. I don�t want to mean nothing, I don�t want what happened between us to mean nothing. I don�t want to sweep it under the rug and pretend it never happened. I would count those hours with you, with your hands and mouth on my skin, pushing my body to it�s limits as some of the most cherished moments of my life. I always thought sexual intimacy and emotional safety were mutually exclusive, but I was wrong. I don�t want to forget what it was like to feel so safe and comfortable and passionate and powerful at the same time. I also don�t want to stop. In fact I want more. I want as much as possible before I am forced to let you go. And I know you don�t want me to get hurt, but don�t you think that that should be up to me? Because the truth is that whether we stop now, or in an indeterminate time from now when you twist on, the outcome will be the same. You�re going to leave and yes, it will hurt, but it was going to hurt anyway- wouldn�t you rather you could look back on X weeks of awesome fun? I know I would rather experience this thing between us as much as possible, knowing that I didn�t let fear hold me back than always wonder what it would have been like, if only I hadn�t been afraid. To quote someone much more eloquent than myself �I�d risk getting hurt if it meant more than imagination� Coz the weirdest part of all this is that I�m not afraid. In fact I�m almost hungry to lose myself in this thing. I want to feel until I am raw and literally beyond feeling any more, but am still begging for sensation because I am so high on lust. I want to want to the point where it becomes need, until I am blind with it, because I can�t bear the heat, but would rather die than lessen the intensity of the experience�and I�m turning myself on just by writing this, so I should probably stop now lol. |
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