Dear Gallus,

So today, I got cocky. I thought *Hey, I'm doing so well, progressing with my treatment, not obsessing about you, not stressing over Scottish guy etc. I wonder if you ever got your shit together to make a facebook page, coz I wonder how you're doing.*
And so I searched. And this one came up, with a guy that kinda looked like you and I swear to the goddess my heart stopped beating. It wasn't you, but I think if it had been I actually would have burst into tears.

Goddamnitt. And I thought I was doing so well.

-Me (the dumbass who continues to delude herself that you and our past don't matter)

heart - break